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Where the hell do I begin? Okay let’s start with saying. Yesterday was absolutely retarded. What started off a frustrating day ended quite interesting to say the least. I can’t go into specifics but I will say 3 SOMES ROCK!!! lol
So any who after a lunch date with a great friend I’ve decided to make the main character like a super character. Give her characteristics from myself along with some of my close female friends. Shit, this book is going to be jammed packed with juice!!! I feel good this morning. Ever since I started writing I’ve been feeling so free. I’m just happy I can share my writing process with you. Tomorrow starts my week at sirius. Wed- saturday. shout outs to my boy V-Stylez, he is so amped about this project we have coming out i can hardly wait to hear the finished product. You guys are taking the journey of writing a book with me, and honestly I wouldn’t rather a better group of friends:
I feel like sharing an excerpt from chapt 1. page 3 first draft
“my brother Kamahi the oldest of my mother’s children ran away to Harlem, to stay with grandma. I guess after the last beating daddy gave momma, that nigga’ just couldn’t take it any more. There was blood everywhere that night, “Momma must have really fucked up”, is what remember thinking. Daddy was furious when he came in, and he had a pipe in his hand. He and momma argued for a little while, before mama started screaming. Like a scene from a horror movie, blood was everywhere, daddy was calm, a little too calm for a person that just beat the mother of his child. He lit his Newport and, began taking long drags of the cancer stick. “Next time, you better not pop, without me.” He said exhaustedly, massaging his right wrist with his left hand, all the while never letting the cigarette drop from his crusty white lips. He rambled on, “you always trying to get slick, you smoke my shit, and then tried to lock me out? Bitch you must be crazy” Mesha ran to mommas aid, but it was already too late daddy was standing over mama with the same pipe he walked in with, Shayla call 911 Mesha started screaming, mommas bleeding from her head. I loved my mother but I didn’t want to get involved, the last time I accidentally got involved in a fight my mother and father had, I ended up being a human shield. Mama was sick of David, she took a lot from him but she was growing tired. I just wanted to say goodnight, she was in the kitchen boiling water, I figured she couldn’t sleep and woke up for some sleepy time tea, whenever one of us couldn’t sleep she would always fix some sleepy time tea and it always worked, maybe mama needed some tea I remember saying to myself, I entered the kitchen and gave my momma a long hug, I hadn’t seen her smile in awhile and I hated to see mama unhappy. As my mama began to hug me back the first of the three locks on our apartment door unlocked, he was home. Mama scooted me to my room, but I wanted to say good night to daddy too. I inched a few steps away from the kitchen in anticipation of daddy’s entrance. He opened the door, adorned with a huge smile, the smuggest expression I’ve ever seen on his big face. “I’m home” he exclaimed. No sooner than he entered the apartment did Mama Come barging out of the kitchen “you filthy mother fucker, you think I wouldn’t find out huh? You think I wouldn’t find out about that bitch Derrick? I’m so fuckin tired of your shit” before I could move out of the way, daddy grabbed me, he must of saw the pot of water in mamas hands before I did. Mama wasn’t making tea; she was boiling water for daddy. Mama was infamous for trying to take daddy out; she once stabbed him in the kidney, now she was trying to scold him. “put my daughter down” she screamed “, he didn’t flinch, he got a better grip on me and dared my mother to throw the water “go ahead show Shayla how much you love her, throw the hot water april” april was the name my father gave my mothers angry personality. When ever she got angry he got to calling her april. My mother was focused “I’m going to tell you one more time David, put my fucking daughter down, she has nothing to do with this” my mama and daddy were going back and forth and I was crying, not because I was hurt, but more because I was scared. I didn’t want them fighting again. Every day was an argument; every night was a make-up session. “I’m not putting shit down, you want to burn me? Well than you are going to have to burn the both us, you crazy bitch” they went back and forth like that for a while, Mama eventually poured the water out, and daddy eventually put me down. As I was thrown to the couch, I looked at my father, his features similar to mine, I gave him a piercing stare, my eyes were glazed, I was full of fury :“I HATE YOU” I said concisely, he looked at me, his face bewildered, he couldn’t believe what he had heard “ what did you say to me little girl?” My momma’s blood was boiling inside me, I felt bold, felt the need for him to hear me clearly, I repeated myself “I HATE YOU DAVID”-
Raeshoana “Mz. Stylez” Carter
This week has been very interesting to say the least. This blog will be no different, now granted it is only Wednesday. However there seems to never be dull moment in my life. I’ve been dealing with an eternal conflict. I almost got wrapped up in trying to fit in with the “IN CROWD” who ever they are. I was listening to a radio friend talk about another woman, and how her “shoe game” wasn’t up to par, which got me to thinking. {
DISCLAIMER: What you are about to read is REAL!!! If you don’t appreciate or recognize real, than maybe its time to minimize this page and go about your business}Now I was a little bothered by the comment, especially because as much as I front like I’m getting it, I can’t afford some of the things that my “industry” friends can afford. As much as I’d love to shop on 5th avenue every weekend, I just can’t afford it, and live my real life as Shawna, you know the person behind the Stylez persona? Yes there is a real live person behind my character lol. I became so frustrated with the thought of not being able to afford the nice things that is slummed my entire weekend, I even cried, that was until I spoke to my advisor. He’s been in the game for about 10 years and he is anything but “flossed out” He is a regular Joe, drives a regular car, he rents doesn’t own big houses or mansions. He’s just a really basic guy that works hard and loves music. “Shawna, you have to be you baby girl, you cant allow what these other people are doing/ and or saying to change your mission, you unlike some of these other folk have a gift, you are talented and you’ve acquired a skill, you don’t have to over compensate, with jewelry or shoes, that stuff will come, further more half the people you just mentioned, are bums fronting for the cameras, there is no money in this game anymore, 99.9% of the shit you see is because people are charging it, ruining their credit to “fit in” do you want to be in debt and cute? Or do you want to be able to own property and than go to Gucci? Shit Stylez, your blessed, you’re a woman in the industry and you’ve accomplished more than the average 30 year old, plus you didn’t have to lay on your back for any of it, you’ve earned everything you have, and you can go to bed at night with a clean conscience, some of your business friends can’t, some of them only have to offer their physical, because their talent is out the window, and so is skill. Don’t get caught up ma, stay focused and geared toward the bigger picture.” I thought about it long and hard. I do want the finer things, I would like to go shoe shopping with the “bad bitches” however, material items don’t define me, or how much of a “bad bitch” I am. I remember saying I’m going to fake it till I make it, so when did my vision become so blurred? 
I had to catch myself; I can’t compare myself to anyone else because no one else can do it like me and vice versa. People get so caught up with the flashing lights they lose sight of the reason they get in the game to begin with. I can’t speak for anyone else but I got in the game because radio is my life. I’ve loved radio since the first time I heard star and buck wild on shot 97. Now I can’t live with out my radio. I’ve invested thousands of dollars in an education suited around communications, just so I had an edge on some of the other competition in radio; I’ve actually acquired a degree in it. I apologize for loosing sight of my dreams, getting caught up with the hoopla… But I’m back. Back to making mixtapes for the people, back to talking to the people who support my career, fuck trying to impress these industry folk, Yes I can admit it I got wrapped up but I re-realize, the only person that needs to be impressed is me! I got into this game because I love music, being able to talk to people around the country about things that are important to them, it’s therapeutic. So I may not be able to afford 2,000 shoes, I may not have 2k diamond earrings but one thing I do have is my passion, I unlike so many people wake up and get to do what I love doing, that’s the ultimate reward…
I’VE HAD A MOMENT OF INDISCRETION BUT IM BACK! AND ITS SOO OK TO BE MYSELF. THE SNEAKER QUEEN THAT CAN ROCK A PAIR OF SHOES WHEN NEED BE… FUCK CONFORMING FOR WHAT? TO BE LIKE THE REST OF THE INDUSTRY SNOBS? I’LL PASS AND MAKE MY OWN WAY.. THANKS ANYWAY. IM GLAD I CAUGHT MY SELF!
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Its drives me absolutely insane!!!! INSANE I TELL YOU!!!!
I hang out with 99.9% males by choice, I have about 3 or 4 solid female friends that I vibe with on a regular basis, and they also happen to be extended sisters. You know the females I grew up with from the sand box LITERALLY.
Hanging out with the male specimen, I’ve gained a lot of insight, and knowledge to how men operate, and think, generally speaking that is.
What drives me absolutely nuts, are these lame ass women, who use there children as pawns to hurt the “baby daddy”. Yes, we are on a serious note this dreary Monday morning. Why do women do that? WTF? We complain about needing a good man, “I need a good man that’s going to provide for his family, I need him to be there for his children etc” yet, the moment he slips up, it’s “I’m taking you for child support” r “you can’t see your child”. I think that is despicable, how do you keep the father of your child away? Not only are you punishing him, you’re also punishing the child.
This weekend, I had the pleasure to kick it with an old friend. Now I won’t front initially I was hesitant to hang with Ole boy because he has issues to say the least, but after hanging with him I’ve realized, home boy is miserable because his baby mother took both his kids away and he doesn’t know how to locate them. He has no numbers, no addresses nothing, all because he missed a hair cut. I mean, listening to his story I came to the conclusion she left him to be with her current live in boyfriend and she figured it be easier to drop him and have her current boyfriend play daddy #2. Which is trifling to no end? What kind of a woman does that? Further more, as the live in boyfriend, what kind of a man allows a woman to keep the children away from the biological dad, especially if the bio-dad wants to be active. I mean this dude was distraught. 
We went to Duane Reade to fill a prescription and the pharmacy happened to be in eye view of the toy section, the poor man almost broke down “I just want to buy my sons some toys, and take them to the movies” I can’t imagine the pain he is in. His sons are now 8 and 2, he hasn’t seen them in almost 2 years, which means the baby doesn’t even know who “daddy” really is, and the eldest child is probably confused as all hell. For the first 6 years Bio-daddy was around, and for the last 2- daddy #2 has taken his place. We as women have to do better! We can’t allow the stress and frustration of the relationship affect what’s going on with the children. We can’t use our children to try and control a man; “if you don’t come over today you can’t see your son… If you don’t give me $$ today you can’t see your kid”… that’s just dead wrong. Yes money, and material items are important when raising a child, but the bond between a parent and a child goes deeper than a haircut or sneakers. Those little boys need their father. I don’t have children, however, I know when I start my family, I will not allow anything to come in-between the relationship of my child, and his/her father. Adults work things out civilly. 
I totally understand sometimes issues can’t be resolved; sometimes partners must go their separate ways. However, that shouldn’t affect the relationship between father and child. A woman’s scorn is a dangerous weapon, yet it’s beyond selfish to drag a child into the dealings of two “grown” individuals.
You can’t use a child to keep a man, that’s foul.
This is the type of situation that keeps me from having children, I don’t want to end up going through the baby momma drama, getting ignorant, and conniving because I’m hurt.
The person who ultimately suffers is the child, why bring that type of mental anguish upon your baby?
You have to protect yourself, these days especially. You have these people, they pretend to be your friend, They hold you down, or so it seems, but what you don’t know, what you have yet to realize, is that very person posing to be your friend, is your worst enemy.
I would always say my bestfriend had potential to be my worst enemy on the strength she knows ALL my business, and could really use that to hurt me if our friendship ever went left. That however, is not the definition of the type of people I’m talking about today. I’m refering to that person that wants to be all in your mix, they pretend to be down for your cause but the moment they can stab you in the back, they take will. The same person who sat in your house listening to all your business, the same person that encourages you to do better, is that same conniving mother f*$%*# driving a knife in your back. I’ve come across a few Frienemies. Hell I have to be honest, I’ve been a frienemy once or twice. I guess it kind of goes with the notion keep your friends close but your enemies closer. Grandma taught me that from young lol. My real friends never understood why I kept certain people around me, and I really couldn’t careless about them. Its strategic to some degree. If I become friends with the enemy, they wouldn’t expect me least to do dirt? correct? Hmm now these days I don’t agree with it, Now adays if I can’t trust you I just don’t rock with you, which is why my circle is so extremely small. people hate for the simplest things. Being on both sides of the fence I think it better to just be honest. if you dont like a person don’t pose, Just be yourself and enjoy the people you like to enjoy. be mindful of the people you have in your inner circle though, especially if your doing well for yourself, because jealousy, that is the creator of the frienemy . Most frienemy situations occur due to jealousy/ envy… 
Have you ever had a friend throw salt on your game when you come up with an idea or a plan, but not once like all the time? they just dont want you to do well, its almost as if they get nervous when they hear you making moves? especially if they can’t take part in those moves? She / He is a FRIENEMY
Have you ever had someone around you criticize everything you do, hell maybe everything you wear, but the second the opportunity comes for them to do exactly what you were doing, or wear exactly what you were wearing they take it? thats is frienemish!
be cautious..
Frienemies come in all shapes colors and sizes. They aren’t gender bias
Men can be frienemies too
ever had a “platonic friend” throw dirt on your name to all his/ her other friends
thats some frienemy ish….
frienemies are every where, at work, yea that chick in the office that gets your coffee and listens to you moan and complain bout work stuff, she probably spits in your coffee FRIENEMY
they do exist so please protect your self!
Side effects of frienemies include:
HEADACHES
SHORTNESS OF PATIENTS
ANGER ATTACKS
Protect your self!!! Get real friends and stick with them!
Another monday NO LIPSERVICE!!! Starting to wonder what in sam hell is going on. These past few weeks have been kind of crazy. I find myself falling in and out of love with this business. the good always outweighs the bad but still sometimes I find myself very down. Been thinking about how much fun i used to have doing this ish, before it became all about business and not about my passion or fun. Now its just work. I’m trying to get myself back in the groove. I have some new projects in the works. Old doors are closing and new doors are opening. I’ve cut alot of people off this month lol.. Especially a handful of whores. I refuse to dickride or act groupied out for some extra shine. Further more I refuse to be played out by “so called friends”. I’m just growing extremely tired of the fakeness that occurs in this business. People are heartless. Sometimes it gets so overwhelming I just escape from it all. Just find myself lost in my thoughts. I’m heading to sirius tonight despite lipservice not being live. I’m going to start working on some new projects that are in the works see what i can come up with what creative juices i use tonight . so im bout to skate up out of here… i’ll holla and take some footage when i get to sirius.. love is love
and stylez is stylez!~!
Last night was cool, I ended up checking out my boy d whutevva at this club near my house… very interesting night it turned out to be.. Tonight Whutevva, Stylez, Gist, and Berry part two. Lets back track a little bit. First and foremost I believe Eliane had a great night, and i have pictures to prove it lmao. When we go home last night ever one crashed on Jessica’s bed. Craziness… Today shall be a great day because I’m on my positive mode.
Yesterday I really went in deep on one of my homies. Alot of evil shit was said on my behalf. I almost broke down because i really feel like this hollywood shit is getting in his head and effecting his brain. Hopefully this conversation has enlightened him to exactly where I stand and how I feel about him. We talked so im going to assume everything will be straight from this point forward, than again you kow what they say about people who assume.
I came up with a name for ole boy.. Mush Face and Mush Face played himself. He came at me with the wrong tpye of question and the worst time ever. So for that mush face, you sensitive guy you. you are dismissed. lmao No time to entertain that ish, with all the great things i have going on i am in no position to be settling for less than what i feel i deserve. Thinking about going to the All Star Game, i asked a couple of my blog friends to come out as well, I’ll probably end up linking with Slay and Ruc da jackel .. than again.. maybe not lol…
I’m going to head out go do some light shopping, than i’m going to browse around for apartments… tonight i’m going to catch up with my boy scott {@scottydoesknow} and catch a play, followed by a fun filled night of hiphop yay! can’t get too much betterthan that, hmm than again.. it could be warm and i could be in on the beach lol… well its cool for now. iight people’s i know its pretty cut and dry today but i will update you a little later…. got some great thing i need to work on and i’m on the foxxhole this saturday 11pm- midnight E.T 
yeahhh buddy
sirius 106 xm 149
shout outs to my homie colbert!
WHY DON’T I BLOG ABOUT THE BULLSHIT EVERY ONE ELSE BLOGS ABOUT?
BECAUSE IF I DID THAT, I WOULDN’T BE STYLEZ, THE CHICK CUT FROM A DIFFERENT CLOTHE LOL
Nah seriously though, I just don’t have the time to study what folk are doing with their lives, when I’m trying to focus on making my life the best it can be.
What is a reality blog? A REALITY BLOG IS THIS… LOL I talk about real shit that happens in my life, at the radio station, at the club, different shows, my new job, my ups and my downs. it’s kind of like an internet journal in which I share my deep inner feelings lmao… Well maybe not that deep, but deep enough
WHAT INSPIRED THE IDEA? Reality t.v/ blogs. I knew from the jump I couldn’t be a Necole Bitchie or a Blogxilla, I couldn’t do it everyday, they put a lot of time and energy in being great at blogging about other folk, which takes research and gossip. My blog is about me, I dont need to research myself because, who knows me better than me? This blog is dedicated to my friends, fans, and family. I speak to them from my heart keep them updated on my progress etc etc
SO YES I AM THE ORIGINAL REALITY BLOGGER… IF YOU HEAR PPL ON THIS REALITY BLOG ISH.. I AM THE ORGINIAL DON DADA LOL ….
Moving on…
shout outs to my boy ruc the jackel, Called me to come out last night, although I didn’t make it out, I appreciate the love.
Much love to my big brother Raekwon shouting me out on twitter, that was nice of you bro 
appreciate the love.
If you don’t know than it’s time you educate your self, THE APHILLIATES ARE LIVE ON SIRIUS SHADE 45 XM 66 EVERY FRIDAY 8PM-10PM E.T With my boys @DJDRAMA @DJSENSE AND SUPERSTAR @V12DAHITMAN lol make sure you tune in. My birthday is in 9 days… Let the partying begin. I’m trying to figure out what I’m wearing tonight. I think we are going out. Not sure yet but, I do know I’M READY TO PARTY MY LAST DAYS AS A 22 YEAR OLD UP! 23 here I come.
2009 IS ENDING… This year flew by. I met so many great people this year, had so many ups and downs. Yet and still I’m still here grinding out. driven. lol
Well today I’m going to focus on the mixtapes travis porters go shorty go drops this monday excited about that and umm I need to link up with dj Woogie and finish politicing with him.
December birthday’s
DJ SENSE, GLORIA VELEZ, RENADA ROMAIN, MZ STYLEZ,
Today was cool, I started my 9-5 job. its cool can’t really complain. im sitting at a desk im comfortable etc.
Shout outs to that light skin nicca DJ SENSE happy birthday bruh.
I’m pressed for time. I have to make it to sirius very soon. However I’m not going to leave my day job early. 5pm is when I get off 5pm is when I’ll break out. Its cool as hell outside and all I really want is some atomic wings and a great beverage.
Trying to get Harlem based rap group Square off to guest host my show on thatshiphop.com but we shall see how that goes, however i did get Kel Spencer to agree and I’m excited about that. This sunday will be interesting. but we sill have to get through the rest of today thursday friday and saturday. I had a very productive meeting with some folk from foxxhole went very well. OK OK OK… ITS ABOUT THAT TIME… OFF TO SIRIUS LOL TUNE IN TONIGHT 8PM -MIDNIGHT ON SIRIUS XM SHADE 45 XM 66 STREET SWEEPER RADIO WITH DJ KAYSLAY DEE VAZQUEZ AND DJ RADIO WITH ME ON THE BOARDS….
HEADED FOR THE WEEKEND! TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!!
Yeo so its time for another great weekend. This weekend as usual you can catch me on V.I.P saturdays { SHAYNA D KIMMI CUPCAKES J.U DJ SELF }from 10pm-1am E.T on sirius Shade45 XM66, and than you can catch me and the guys of fat boy radio {dj sns dallas green rotten thoughts marcus 920 and rap } on HipHop Nation xm 67.
This weekend my brother @dj_caesar will be holding down the foxxhole from 11pm-12 miidnight sirius 106 xm 149
I’m sure he’s excited. I just got my schedule for the foxxhole, I’ll be live again on december 26th, a day before my birthday. What a great christmas/birthday gift.
Things are looking up for 2010, and although life throws curb balls every day and you never know what to expect, i feel confident about the new year and what it has instore for me. God willing i’ll be moved in to my new apartment no later than february 3rd. Start my new job next Wednesday, The radio career is going swell, I have great people who believe in me, holding me down and teaching me the ropes. these nfinal weeks of 2009 I’m using to set the tone for 2010, but im also using them to reflect on the things that have happened this year, goo d and bad. the people that were in my life for a season or a reason. I’m so grateful to have the support system that I have.
I’m gracious to have the strong group of people that keep me motivated in my circle. I went through so many herdles this year, I honestly wanted to give up, the entire time lucky lefty stood by myside and made sure i kept grinding out, even when he was facing family issues and health issues of his own he always made sure his ear was at my disposal and that means so much to me, I’m blessed to have those type of people around me. I’ve made a few true friends in this business. A FEW IS DEF BETTER THAN NONE.
I’m learning that attitude is everything and i can’t carry the weight of the world on my shoulder, it fucks up my attitude you know?
i have to be strong for the people who look up to me, and also for the people who doubt me, those are the mofo’s that keep me grinding even when I’m tired. Tonight I’m tired, BUT I’m fighting… I have serious work to do and i’m not going to sleep till it gets done…
STLYEZ IN CHARGE OF HER LIFE!!
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