Today is a wonderful day! I’m feeling awesome… Its sad when folks try to steal your awesome moments… This is why I’m grateful to my mentors… They taught me early on to protect my happiness. I just can’t believe folks grown folks could be so childish and petty. Jealousy is a monstrous disease! Smh… My haters and those who trespass against me and my journey are the fuel for my ambition. Today I had to catch myself. I was ready to go on a ignorant crusade. However after sitting back and realizing all my blessings, that’s exactly what the devil wants… Its just sad how he works through people. I refuse to get caught up with the nonsense… Its going to take a lot more than name calling and throwing my grandmother in the equation to get a “rise” out of me lol… For those who are lost I have an anonymous hater who goes out of his/her way to email me silly messages… Today I’m a lay on my back ho… I laughed it off, I’ve been called worse but much better people. My angel is shining down on me from up above, she is proud and that’s all that ever really mattered. How miserable of a soul to drag my deceased grandmother into something so disgraceful… Shame on it all… Any who tonight it goes down on sirius xm Shade45.. ‘Lipservice’ followed by ’showoff’ radio.. Of course with me on the boards doing my production thing. We will be airing rude jude and reef live from detroit they will be covering the eminem/jay-z concert so make sure you’re tuned in tonight sirius xm66 shade45 8-midnight ET
Can’t knock my hussle! I’m getting it in 2 jobs 5 classes, my own place, no kids, I’m something like a dream lol have a meeting before work tonight… Shout outs to my homie adebisi! 80’s babies the mixtape. I didn’t realize how much our mixtape changed his life but it def did, got him to nyc doing shows etc… I see your progression babe! Get it! In little dominican republic right now (washington heights) lol home of the haze smh… Ill holla simply stylez! God thank you for the strength to ignore ignorance !

So as I promised, I’m going to keep up with my blogs, etc…. For those who have been following my blog for the last two years, you know I blog about my real life shit, as Mz.Stylez and as Shawna… We aren’t going to change the formula now… Today started pretty early. Had 7am class. Work today, which is just a few meetings. Things are going very well in my world. I moved recently, made the switch to BROOKLYN! And its been awesome thus far, its a one bedroom, really cozy, and I’m having all the fun in the world hooking my space up. I’m starting the fall off with a wonderful bang. Slowly getting back into the swing of things within the “business” but with a greater sense of myself. That vacation from everything was so needed… I really needed to detach myself so I could look in from the outside and assess my next move strategically. I’ve been in regular communication with my mentors and, although they want to see me live out my DJ dream, I know I will however, right now my focus is on school and figuring out what and who Shawna is. I know Mz. Stylez I’ve been preparing her my entire adult life, now its time to get to know Shawna and I’m enjoying that. Holla at yall manana

guess who is awake… lol Stylez… I’m back yall.. officially. Back on my ‘twitter ish’ back on my blogging… back on my listening sessions… slowly but surely I’m making a come back LMAO… you shall soon see. So many people have been hitting me up asking me where I have been, if I stopped doing radio and the answer is HELL NO, I’m still up at Sirius still holding down the fort. However, my priorities have definitely changed. I had to take a serious look at the direction of my life, and my contribution to the music community.
I had to analyze so called “friends” had to clean my inner circle. I had to really think about if this is what I want for my life… FOUR months later. I’ve decided. I can do it all. I can maintain two careers, and a full time school schedule. why not? I’m super Stylez.
I have been completely tuned out of this industry life for the past 4 months. I couldn’t tell you who is fucking who or who is the next hot rapper, and honestly I really don’t give a damn. During my break I realized that if i’m going to continue to pursue my career in radio/ entertainment, that I have to change. I can’t focus on the gossip, or who likes me and who doesn’t lol, I just have to do me and impress myself, I’m going to work on my mixtapes, and do what I do because I enjoy it. music is my outlet! So simply stylez is reaching her 2nd birthday 2 full years up on the web… and we are working on her face lift. You thought I was a trip before… lol you haven’t seen nothing yet!!!

I’m calling folk out… I will put you on blast. and I will have a good time doing it. ALLOW ME TO REINTRODUCE MY SELF MY NAME IS STYLEZ!

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Where the hell do I begin? Okay let’s start with saying. Yesterday was absolutely retarded. What started off a frustrating day ended quite interesting to say the least. I can’t go into specifics but I will say 3 SOMES ROCK!!! lol
So any who after a lunch date with a great friend I’ve decided to make the main character like a super character. Give her characteristics from myself along with some of my close female friends. Shit, this book is going to be jammed packed with juice!!! I feel good this morning. Ever since I started writing I’ve been feeling so free. I’m just happy I can share my writing process with you. Tomorrow starts my week at sirius. Wed- saturday. shout outs to my boy V-Stylez, he is so amped about this project we have coming out i can hardly wait to hear the finished product. You guys are taking the journey of writing a book with me, and honestly I wouldn’t rather a better group of friends:

I feel like sharing an excerpt from chapt 1. page 3 first draft

“my brother Kamahi the oldest of my mother’s children ran away to Harlem, to stay with grandma. I guess after the last beating daddy gave momma, that nigga’ just couldn’t take it any more. There was blood everywhere that night, “Momma must have really fucked up”, is what remember thinking. Daddy was furious when he came in, and he had a pipe in his hand. He and momma argued for a little while, before mama started screaming. Like a scene from a horror movie, blood was everywhere, daddy was calm, a little too calm for a person that just beat the mother of his child. He lit his Newport and, began taking long drags of the cancer stick. “Next time, you better not pop, without me.” He said exhaustedly, massaging his right wrist with his left hand, all the while never letting the cigarette drop from his crusty white lips. He rambled on, “you always trying to get slick, you smoke my shit, and then tried to lock me out? Bitch you must be crazy” Mesha ran to mommas aid, but it was already too late daddy was standing over mama with the same pipe he walked in with, Shayla call 911 Mesha started screaming, mommas bleeding from her head. I loved my mother but I didn’t want to get involved, the last time I accidentally got involved in a fight my mother and father had, I ended up being a human shield. Mama was sick of David, she took a lot from him but she was growing tired. I just wanted to say goodnight, she was in the kitchen boiling water, I figured she couldn’t sleep and woke up for some sleepy time tea, whenever one of us couldn’t sleep she would always fix some sleepy time tea and it always worked, maybe mama needed some tea I remember saying to myself, I entered the kitchen and gave my momma a long hug, I hadn’t seen her smile in awhile and I hated to see mama unhappy. As my mama began to hug me back the first of the three locks on our apartment door unlocked, he was home. Mama scooted me to my room, but I wanted to say good night to daddy too. I inched a few steps away from the kitchen in anticipation of daddy’s entrance. He opened the door, adorned with a huge smile, the smuggest expression I’ve ever seen on his big face. “I’m home” he exclaimed. No sooner than he entered the apartment did Mama Come barging out of the kitchen “you filthy mother fucker, you think I wouldn’t find out huh? You think I wouldn’t find out about that bitch Derrick? I’m so fuckin tired of your shit” before I could move out of the way, daddy grabbed me, he must of saw the pot of water in mamas hands before I did. Mama wasn’t making tea; she was boiling water for daddy. Mama was infamous for trying to take daddy out; she once stabbed him in the kidney, now she was trying to scold him. “put my daughter down” she screamed “, he didn’t flinch, he got a better grip on me and dared my mother to throw the water “go ahead show Shayla how much you love her, throw the hot water april” april was the name my father gave my mothers angry personality. When ever she got angry he got to calling her april. My mother was focused “I’m going to tell you one more time David, put my fucking daughter down, she has nothing to do with this” my mama and daddy were going back and forth and I was crying, not because I was hurt, but more because I was scared. I didn’t want them fighting again. Every day was an argument; every night was a make-up session. “I’m not putting shit down, you want to burn me? Well than you are going to have to burn the both us, you crazy bitch” they went back and forth like that for a while, Mama eventually poured the water out, and daddy eventually put me down. As I was thrown to the couch, I looked at my father, his features similar to mine, I gave him a piercing stare, my eyes were glazed, I was full of fury :“I HATE YOU” I said concisely, he looked at me, his face bewildered, he couldn’t believe what he had heard “ what did you say to me little girl?” My momma’s blood was boiling inside me, I felt bold, felt the need for him to hear me clearly, I repeated myself “I HATE YOU DAVID”-

Raeshoana “Mz. Stylez” Carter

“NEVER LET SOMEONE THAT HAS NO IDEA WHAT YOU’RE DOING STOP YOU FROM PERSUING IT. WOULD YOU FOLLOW A “HOW TO DO’ BOOK WRITTEN BY AN AUTHOR THAT KNEW AS MUCH OR LESS ABOUT THE TOPIC AT HAND AS YOU DID? I HOPE NOT. HAVE A GREAT DAY YALL”- @QUESTMCODY

Writing this book is consuming me. In a good way. I find my self so focused. I made it to chapter 5 this Sunday and I must say I’m excited. I’m releasing all of my demons in this book. The things I’ve done I’m not proud of the people who have hurt me and taken from me. So much thought has been put into this project, I really feel like this by far is one of my greatest accomplishments. “FROM PAIN TO POWER- setting my self free” I’ve been playing around with different titles, trying to come up with the best fit for the book and so far that’s what I’ve come up with. A close friend of mine asked me, “What is the purpose of writing a book about my life? Do you think people will buy the book stylez?” she asked. And, well honestly, It’s not about if people buy my book or not. It’s really about me healing. I’m sure some people will have negative feed back, but I’m prepared. I’m taking the painful memories I have and I’m transforming them. I’ve never spoken out; I’ve kept things bottled up for so long. Further more if one person reads my book and it impacts them than my job is done. There are so many women out there who have experienced what some of the things I have, who don’t speak out or who can’t speak out. So I’m going to stop being a pussy, I’ve promised to tell my story, and that’s what’s been taking up the bulk of my time. Good bad or indifferent this book, is my truth. So for all of you who think you know…. YOU HAVE NO IDEA

Yes folk Among the other great things I have going on, I am still writing my book. This isn’t a self help book, or a book on tips lol its a book based on true events and I’m excited. hitting my fourth chapter page 60. I’ve been really going hard at it, even given up going out and running the town to focus on the details and research for my book. I’m very excited. I Just sent the first chapter to my editor. Things are looking very great. I can’t wait to put the book out but timing is everything. This book is going to change my life and the way people look at me. good bad or indifferent it is what it is/ and will be what it will be.!

So the majority of my time will be dedicated to my book. I still have about another 110 pages to write, i average about ten-15 pages a day so i should be finished the rough draft in about 2-3 weeks. I hope you bare with me, i know my updates are bland but all of my creative energy is going into this master piece!

stylez

I haven’t been writing as much because my attention has been else where. I apologize for the neglect. I’ve missed you though if that counts for anything. I’ve been seriously putting thoughts to paper. I’m constructing my first book. As much as I want to go in and tell you the details, I have to wait. Timing is everything. but i will say I am extremely excited. These past few day’s I’ve been MIA. I’ve run around with porn star friends,& reality star friends. Special birthday love to the boy DJ Pro-Style and promoter OBIE and all you other Taurus folk. Stylez has been a busy woman, reconnecting with old folk. closing chapters in my life. Today I’m feeling absolutely in control. I had the opportunity to be a bitch to someone that really did me dirty but instead, i took the higher road. the road to success is learning from your failures, to strengthen your successes. I have been learning so much. I don’t regret anything that I’ve been through and I don’t hold grudges, however I don’t forget either. I will always remember those people who went out their way to hurt or betray me. and I keep those people distant. no need in having those negative forces around me. I’m cooking up some greatness for you loyal readers, so just bare with me and be patient. lol some one told me I’m a freak because I hang with porn stars, and my response to that is, I was a freak long before i met my porno friends lmao. I’m just not freaky with everyone certain lovers get certain treatment that other lovers may not, depends on the chemistry, the relationship etc!
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